Sunday, April 18, 2010

My mouth open damn big




The old lady in the video is the contestant in Britans got talent in 2010 named Susan Boyle.



Firstly, I've watched the video more than 10 times and I will open my mouth and raise up my eye brown automatically whenever she starts singing.



I am touched when I watches this video everytime.


By looking at her profile, she's an unemployed 47 age old lady.


By looking in this video clip, I felt that everyone is againts her when she step on the stage and everyone wants to see what funny things that she will do while she is singing.


However, she shows her increadible voices to the public and at last, everybody supports her!


I am touch because by looking into her eye, I feel lonelyness in her. I feel that she is a lady that are lonely that stays on her own and nobody is supporting her. And end up when she get a big big clap from the audience, I see happiness in her eye. That's what she wants and dreamed of!


But afterall she is a confident and potential old lady that are able to show up her talent in the TV which I guess that no people will have the courage to show up their potential like her even they have their potential but they always not confident about themselves.



Some noises from the heart might say, why I need to show? People sure will laugh at me one.


Some noises from the heart might say, hey! she is an old lady la but I am a teenager. She have nothing to lose but I got.


Some noises from the heart might say, thats not my style standing infront infront of the crowd.



However, no matter what reason the noises give, the fact is they will not show out but keep finding excuse for themselves to make them feel better.


Some noises from the heart might say, ya i am scared, ya i am a coward, so what??


They are just finding excuse to cover and don't even take the motivation to change it. And their life will still remain the same. You have a poor life, then you are poor forever; You have a fucked up life, then you'll fucked up forever.



Everyone have a dream since they are young but end up when time goes by, when they meet some obstacle, seeing people fail time to time, they will think forget what they want from the very beginning starting.


And the worst part is they will always find excuse to deny it. As it only will be known by themselves only.


Some might say, different people have different perspective of seeing an object.


It's true but come to think of it, it is the excuse they give to cover their disabality? Be honest to yourself since they are nobody know about that they are thinking right now.


Peeps imagine that the old lady didn't stand up on the stage that day. What is she doing now? And what is she thinking now??

She is able to success today because she is willing to face the obstacle herself! And when she decided to do that, she is the winner! Even if she fails, she is still the winner!

Unlike people that stop trying and fuck everything up because of, "THEY DON'T KNOW" but they always said that "THEY DON'T WANT".

Isn't it FUNNY & SAD???????


By the way I feel quite helpless to myself after i watched this video clip. I don't even dare to face myself. And how I am able to face other people?

Changes need to be made if not I will be like that forever.

XD

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

学业,


事业,


感情,


友情,





必须分清楚。。。。





不要分心



不要迷惑






必须坚持自己的信念,


来达到自己的目标。。。。

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Crazy Idea








I was looking on the Map of Malaysia just now to prepare my schedule to Pahang around next week.

Suddenly I have a "Crazy" intention.

How about traveling without any plans??

Meaning that......



"JUST FUCK IT AND BRING IT ON"



Within a specific state,

With a limited time,

Without a specific routine,

Without plans,

Just look at the map and go,

To clear every single area in the state.




FAQ:

Q: How about the accommodations and food?
A: How I know? See that time at where only decide lo...

Q: Transportation?
A: Car and maybe a bit of ferry. Helicopter and Kapal Terbang prepare yourself.

Q: Har?? No plan?? Then what is the activity??
A: Find yourself. You like to take picture then take, want to find food then find, want to sleep then sleep, want to open window and shout then shout (T&C applied).

Q: Will boring or not wor? Later what also nothing how?
A: How i know??? diu

Q: Who is going??
A: Refer to the previous answer.

Q: You crazy ar?
A: YES

Q: Working until siao d?
A: Refer to the previous answer.

Q: Lei Mou Chin Tou la!
A: _|_ This one question meh??

Saturday, January 16, 2010

New year resolution lo~~~

It seems that it's a bit late to write the resolution here.


Sorry for leaving my blog so deadly because I was damn busy nowadays. Started to work as a merchandiser of an online game company and i receive the same question and end up I gave them the same answer.

Q: What is your job scope?? / Do what de??? / What is merchandiser??


A: LONG GAI!!!!!



XD



It is a very challenging job for me since it requires me to travel all the time, FINDING ROADS (kanasai my weakness) and managing events. It's not the simple simple event but it need to stated the budget, the proposal to the boss and bla bla bla bla...














Cut the crap~~~





Well, here is my resolution for the year 2010!


1) Get more money
2) Play more
3) Study more



LOLX I guess this is very simple but I just couldn't think of anymore for example a new camera, new hand phone.


I can get all those if I had more money isn't it?

Monday, January 4, 2010

renovation




Saturday, December 12, 2009

Dec 6th


“当人一旦起了贪念, 就是一无所有的开始”


“你几时看过 uncle lim 在赌场赌钱”






要永远记住这两句话



后记:

再次的重蹈覆辙,

如果不是那时候的贪, 就不会搞到如此地步

当做买次教训, 最后一次

因为我不是每次都那么幸运

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Fucking Accounting 2

I've changed my mind....



I don't wanna withdraw even until the very last minute...



So I used 4 days to master all the question in the final exam...



From 0%, which means I know nothing about that subject from lecture 1 to lecture 12 before that...



And I done it..... In 4 days..... 12 weeks work man....







I need to get at least 80/100 in my final exam to pass this subject because I get 0% for my assessment.







I am pretty sure that I can do well in my final. But 80/100 seems impossible.... Somemore is accounting... Not normal accounting but is degree 2nd year subject....





ARGHHHHHHH~~~~~~~




If I failed my exam because I don't know how to do it. Its ok... But this time... I know how to do!!! I will fail this subject with high carrying marks in my final, opps... just not high enough... DAMN PISS!!!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Ngek Ngek

虽然人会变, 但本性不变。

回到最初的地方, 从最初的地方看起, 就能看见事实。。。

才发现,

那中间的部分只是虚伪的演技,

只是有些人中途放弃,

有些人选择演到最后。。。。



无能的人才会耍手段, 玩演技,

因为只有在自己在演主角的当儿, 才不会感到自卑。。。








过来人~~~
因为试过,明白了, 所以很久以前决定不演。。。。


P/S: 演艺圈是黑暗的, 只有导演才看的清






*人生经历*

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

等价交换

"If you want something, you need to get it"

Well.... There are also a thing called opportunity cost where people decided to let go something in order to get another thing. Maybe it benefits or maybe it doesn't.



Things are simple, it is just about yes or no. But once a decision is made, it can't be changed. Therefore sometimes decision is hard to make although things seems to be simple.



There are limits, therefore some things just can't get perfect as one's wished. Hence, opportunity cost are applied.


It is all about decisions.... Maybe it will have regrets or disappointments from the pass, but it can't be helped.


People should keep going on as time goes by, because time won't reverse.





*saje record supaya I ingat apa yang berlaku*

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Penang Trip~~

Just come back from Penang with a bunch of crazy friends...

which are....




Ee Ven

- Datin??? LOL!!! You might not feel anything but I am very happy when I saw you wearing the guitar necklace I bought for you 2 years ago at Melaka. Sorry because it only cost RM7, I should have bought you a better one if I know you will wear it till now....





Hian Pek

- In this photo, he wants to become obama so he is practicing now....




June aka Hian's property

- Fuuyooh... Sleep a lot ar in car...




Sheau Pey

- Food researcher, you done a great job in this trip. Appreaciate it...




Teik Wei

- 1st driver, thanks for leading the way in penang... I know finding road is stress... XP





Hon San

- Dai Lou!! Sorry for lefting you alone in this trip... Yum Cha count mine geh... You know I wont run away.. XD




Yee Yang and Peggy

- Sorry I don't have photo of both of you but I wont forget you all!! Yee Yang thanks for helping teik wei find road.. I understand the pressure of finding road.. hahahahaha










De-Yang

- 2nd driver, and a lazy chairman... Pattern Pattern chairman.... Only know how to play, eat, and drive, besides that he do nothing... I swear I wont bring him out to trip next time.. Haiz....

Monday, September 21, 2009

cnt sleep again~!

今天又像往常一样睡不着觉,


头脑里一直回想, 回想。。。


回想该做的东西。。。


也许是一次过太多太多的事物的发生以及必须处理不少东西。。。



这次的假期应该是很忙很忙的。。。 可是总觉得东西好像怎么做都做不完那样。。。



其实我现在承受的压力, 我自己也不敢想有多大, 想了就做不到东西了~~~




不管如何, 该做的还是要做~


压力多大都好都要敢敢去做啊。。。


自从N年前发生的事过后,

我从此决定不再逃避问题,

要守承诺, 为自己的决定负责任。。。。










所以。。。。。。 还是要努力~~




管它是是不是逞强,


还是死顶,


还是什么。。。




我就是要达到我要的目标~~ 哈哈







Steady~~~~~

Saturday, September 12, 2009

no title, nothing to say

This is the first post that I have no idea what to write about...

So I decided to post up a picture.

Hoping that it tells everything out....

I swear there is no other offensive purpose on that...



*Just to make everything clear*





















Regardless what you guys think. It's just my problem. Just blame me... :P

I don't want outsider to kakajiaojiao on this...

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Farewell chee xiong.. again

Bro I am sorry I still don't have the ability to treat you good enough this time when you come back.





兄弟我知道你不会来这里看, 因为你还不知道我有这个部落格。


一路顺风。。。 我最看得起的是你。


你比我更清楚自己以后要怎么走, 我相信你一定会达到你的目标。 我也相信我自己不会看错人。


其实从去年你走了以后一直到现在我学到了不少, 只是一直都没有机会一一和你说, 因为发生了太多东西。

去年你走前你在犹豫自己的道路, 而我正打算东山再起, 你走后我不断尝试, 可惜今时不同往日, 我不断尝试, 不断失败, 一直到现在形势有些好转, 但还没回到当初的高峰。 可是我变了, 从正变成半偏, 认识的人也不同了。 有时想想自己是不是在走自己要的道路。 但至少你从来不会怀疑你自己的道路。


老实说一句, 现在我不喜欢现在的生活, 只是在等机会改变或者找到所谓的平衡点。



不管如何,


下次当你回来的时候, 我会站在比以前, 现在更高的地方, 迎接你~ *此贴为证*

Monday, September 7, 2009

wish

Actually I hope to listen your feeling more than I tell you what I feel...





I hope I'm not the only the party that tell you what I really feel...





不想再去猜下去。。。

Thursday, September 3, 2009

失眠

又是一个失眠的夜晚。。。


酒没了, 突然不知如何是好。。。





AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH




头脑你不要再想东西了可以吗?????????



我要睡觉~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

gonna~~

Just passed up my marketing research assignment yesterday... But it's not the time for me to relax now.

Loads of assignment is coming and it's not much time left for it until the final exam...


Need to catch up what I've miss..

Need to gao dim assignment...

Tones of test and things to study...

This sem is totally not easy for me...


曾今想过不想继续读下去,

曾经想过换科,

因为我完全对这个课程没有兴趣。。。

完全是家庭的意愿~~




虽然曾经任性过,

但是过后的过后,

反复的思考过后,

不管是为了自己也好, 为了家里也好。。。

既然读了,

就要负起责任,

就算不对自己负责任, 也要对家里负责任

不能因为自己的任性让自己家庭在家族面前蒙羞~











所以不管这条路多难走,

需要面对多大的压力,

老子还是要继续坚持的走下去~~~



**区区几本书, 死顶死顶还可以啦** Opps~~


STEADY~~~~~~ Woooooo Hooooo~~~~~~








Gonna be damn busy from today onwards...


But still remember how to pattern pattern la~~ hahahaha








Anyway... Good luck and all the best for all the TARC advertising student who are having exam on 5th of September, if I not mistaken English is the first paper right? hahaha


Belajar kuat dan tidur awal (pey, 2009)~~~ XD XD



STEADY~~~~~~~~~~

Monday, August 31, 2009

Learned New Things

I forgot the most basic things in the first place






Now I know....







Thank you...

Saturday, August 29, 2009

pattern pattern macam betul ni~~ 好像是那样~

已经看清 外表平静 是骗你骗自己



还答应把祝福给你




却忘了问谁收留我的心







_____________________________________________________________________







I just don't understand why some people just like to do things behind the darkness.

Maybe they think that everyone don't know what they are doing?

Hiding their real purpose? Reverse psychology?

Gosh~ I am sick of that.

You underestimated me, because you still don't know me.

And you don't even take the initiative to know me... XD

You think I am blur...

Don't make me listed as enemy

Because I have no mercy towards them.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Academic Progress

This is the 4th week of my 3rd semester and below is my academic progress...



Quantitative Method = Can do Can do....


Financial Accounting 2 = Totally fucked up.... Test tomorrow somemore... GG~!!


Marketing Analysis = I think I killed Miss Oh's whole family last century... Keep aim me and shoot~~!!! KNN!!!!!


Marketing Research = I think Hui San killed Gomathi's whole family last century and I am the 帮凶... Walao... Also kena shoot all the way.... MAHAI!!!





Monday - 8am-10am (Marketing Analysis) = Test + Kena Miss Oh SHOOT!! (don't know why!!)
10am-12pm (Marketing Research) = Presentation + Kena Gomathi SHOOT!!!
2pm-4pm (Marketing Research lec) = Sleep

Tuesday - 12pm-2pm (Financial Accounting 2 lec) = Test+ Totally don't understand WTF is going on.
2pm-4pm (Quantitative Method lec) = Can... Boleh~~

Wednesday - 8am-10am (Quantitative Method) = Test + Pattern Pattern
10am - 12pm (Marketing Analysis lec) = Test + PLEASE WAKE THAT FELLER UP!! (Oh, 2009)

Thursday - 10am-12pm (Financial Accounting) = Haiz.......

Friday - Off day....

Saturday - Pattern Pattern

Sunday - Pattern Pattern







Basicly I screwed up 4 week of this semester... Haiz.. Need to study lah~~!!!!

Somemore got a lot a lot assignment coming!!! Need to submid my Markeiting Research on 1st sept and I totally don't know HOW TO START~!!!!!!!!


Friday, August 21, 2009

g a p

I respect the decision but....







No Friends Without Gap (T&C applied)






What I suppose do I have done...



What I lost is lost....



If this is what I am suppose to get,



I have nothing to say but to accept.




As long as you are happy~ and sleep early everyday....







*I don't need any sorry, because it make things look so fake*